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♣ → [ Forty Four ]

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 16:03:03 GMT

I've not really been myself much lately, have I? I'm sorry, to anyone that may be effecting one way or another. Lenalee and Rabi especially. I'll definitely be okay, though. I'm sure of it. With as many friends and areas of support as I have there's no way it can be anything less.

Everyone's been talking about the killings and fighting lately in the Stadium. I wasn't sure what to make of it or what to consider it. A curse? An excuse to get bloodlust out? I'm not sure this time but I still can't make myself approve of it, though. It seems so... meaningless.

Ah... The animal curse. I remember this one, I think. I had paws and a tail last time. Heh, looks like I got away with it this time.

[ Exorcist Filter; ]

Is anyone affected today? Better we know if any of us have paws or wings or tails before the Noah do.

---

[ Private to General Cross Marian; ]

...I've been going over this time and again in my mind. Since arriving here again and since that curse day.

I'm not sure if I want to say stay away from me or ask if we should talk.

Do you happen to have a coin on you, Master?

♦ → [ Forty Three ]

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 15:43:53 GMT

According to Kanda, Master is here in the City.

...it's been almost a year since he was here. But almost ten days since he... Since... he vanished, I suppose.

I'm actually scared of seeing him or speaking to him myself. I don't know what I'll do. I want to scream at him, ask him what the hell he's trying to do, tell him to stop messing around like this.

But I'm afraid. I'm afraid of what else he might say, that I'll shout at him and say something I don't mean... or something that isn't me. Or punch him. Or... I don't know. It's the fact I don't know that is scaring me.

What I said is true - I will not let the knowledge of me being the 14th's vessel pull me under. I won't drown under it no matter how hard it tries to change me, I'll stay myself. I'll still be me, I'll still be Allen.

...Allen Walker.

The name Mana gave it to me, the 14th's brother. Heh... thinking about it makes me feel sick and uncomfortable. And I know why it does, because I can't even figure out whether the one family member I ever hard, the other father I ever knew, when he told me he loved me... Did he mean me, Allen Walker, the boy he'd adopted... Or him. The 14th. His brother.

What's worse is I will never know. It's not like I can go ask Mana or anything, if I could everything would be so much easier. And I can't-- or don't want to ask Master. It's so childish, but I don't want to know any more. I want to cover my ears and close my eyes and just bury myself, engulf myself in memories of myself and avoid anything that could let him get his fingers in or a foot hole to climb to the surface.

I don't want to become nothing.

It's been so long since the Noah were here, too. Maybe that's gotten me uncomfortable as well. I'm not afraid of either of them, but I am afraid of what they may do. I can't let them hurt anyone, but even then it's too late, isn't it? It's my fault that Road-- That Lenalee...

It was because of what happened to Tyki. But to keep returning the 'favour' would just make this vicious circle.

And yet... Ugh. I hate this.

I hate this... At times like this I'd wonder what Mana might have said to combat these feels but now... I don't know.

I should find Tim... But I'll bet I know where he is.

---

Has anyone seen a little yellow-gold golem? He's got a tail and wings and er... he looks like this kind of... I'm no artist and he's called Timcampy. He came with me to the City this time but I can't find him now...

[ Exorcist Filter; ]
Is everyone okay? I know that Tyki and Road have been network active but have they tried to meet anyone in person recently?

---

[ooc; Well, the tl;dr was supposed to be private but he's affected so oops X);; Exorcist filter doesn't count because it's not supposed to be internal? >3 *cheat* ~~My dad's birthday today so I might suddenly drop off tags for family meal, but I shall return and catch them later, I promise~ ♥~~ All strikes in comments are actually viewable! ]

♣ → [ Forty Two ]

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 15:50:28 GMT

{ A soft fluttering noise, like wings beating }

Nnn... W-what...? Tim? Where did--?! Ow! I think I hit my head...

{ Shifting noises and a noise like someone dusting themselves off }

How long have I...

Huh? Blood? But not mine... Not human.

Heh, guess we should head home, right, Tim?

[ooc; After this on-going thread in which we sort of assumed Allen and Tyki would eventually creep off and lick their wounds and whatnot so Allen is looking a little worse for wear ;;; ]

♥ → [ Forty One ]

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 12:44:31 GMT

[ With a abrupt whirling of a white cloak and a flash of silver, Allen lands suddenly upon the ground, feet digging down into the dirt to stop himself from falling forward before lifting his head and glaring forward, right hand grasping tightly to the grip of the hilt of his sword ]

The Akuma... Where did it--?

[ Blinking a few times, he stands upright fully, staring around slowly. No Akuma in sight, and the place looks very different to one he'd just been in. Yet familiar. ]

...the City? But it's been so long. Why now? It doesn't look any different at all...

[ooc; Oh yes, very affected and full of fanon prediction. Oh noes. So~ have an all grown up, in his twenties, in control of [SPOILER]his memories of the 14th Noah[/SPOILER] even if he won't be talking about it. Aaaaand, assumingly a General now. OH NOES /o\ Commentlog if desired~ ]

♣ → [ Forty ]

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 23:15:44 GMT

Ah. The City again. And apparently on a curse day. Hmm... the network seems colourful today. Interesting sense of humour going on it seems.

[ooc; Canon updated Allen is back again up to the middle of chapter 169, the most recent one. He is not feeling the lulz of the memes, City. Sorry XP;; Mind those spoilers, kids~ ]

♦ → [ Thirty Nine ]

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 04:43:27 GMT

Snow again, huh? Random as ever, City.

[ Private; ]

How many times has it snowed since I've been here now? Three or four? This is a rather unusual timing, but then I suppose the City had no real sense of time.

Mana... a lot of our time together seemed to be when it was snowing. It doesn't upset me, it just... hmmm... ~~You're still missed. I'm sorry.~~

---

I'm going to take a walk.

[ooc; Snow again makes Allen think on stuff. As ever, thoughtful and sort of quiet for the most part, but not low as such. Commentlog if anyone wants to bump into him wandering around near the forest, I shall poke back in a bit after sleeps~ ♥ ]

♠ → [ Thirty Eight ]

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 12:28:59 GMT

Lala
Guzol
Tapp
Suman
General Yeegar
Anita
Mahoja
So many finders and Exorcists
For even a short while, Kanda, Rabi, Krory and Chaoji.
And Mana...

It seems like a curse today, but either way I could never forget. It may not be one of the job requirements by some people's standards, but I will always make it my business to remember, no matter what, cursed or otherwise.

The City seems to be taking and bringing a lot of people lately. Elaine is gone... I'm going to miss her a lot.

[Filtered to Lenalee;]

Lenalee... You returned, didn't you? What was the last thing you remember happening in our world?

♥ → [ Thirty Seven ]

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 15:19:10 GMT

Really, compared to a lot of random visitors the City seems to throw at us these scarecrows aren't so bad. Or at least, the one here right now isn't.

I wish it would let me out the room, though. It's sort of planted itself by the door, but this one doesn't seem to be causing any harm.

More importantly, has anyone seen Lenalee? Since the curse with the holes in the cliff-face I haven't been able to find her anywhere...

♣ → [ Thirty Six ]

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 13:47:07 GMT

be sorted @ nimbo.net

Eh? So... does anyone actually know what this actually means?

♦ → [ Thirty Five ]

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 13:51:20 GMT

I take it back. I hate this place.

And it's not his fault. It's the damn city... I hate it.

[ooc; Allen is discontent due to this that resulted in sad tiems :( ]

♠ → [ Thirty Four ]

Fri, 30 May 2008 14:41:06 GMT

Daemons, murder and hacking... This City really doesn't have any continuity about it. Curses are as random as ever and a selection of people are as callous here as anywhere else.

Despite the curses, it really is good to feel a little more settled in the City again and the Firehouse. Against the better part of my head telling me it would have been better to forget, I'm glad I remember here and the friends I made and in many ways I'm also glad that there are some people from my own world still here, also ~~and no doubt some Noah still remain too.~~ It may be a bit on the selfish side of me to be grateful for such things ~~but if they're still here it means they won't find out about the attack on the Order for some time. But... I should tell them about it, right? Hmm...~~

Still... In a way I wish some of the officials from the Order were here too. I wonder how Master is doing...

I could most likely do with making sure my skills are sharpened. Would anyone be kind enough to offer a sparring session, perhaps? I mean, I know poor Kanda is far too scared to do it these days in case I scruff his hair or he breaks a nail... but I'm sure someone else will be willing to offer, right~? ♥

♥ → [ Thirty Three ]

Mon, 19 May 2008 17:22:22 GMT

This is-- ahh. I think I feel like myself again.

~~I forgot how much I hate this City's curses...~~

I... Vash, Sakura, Alexiel and someone I didn't catch the name of... Thank you for trying to talk me out of my strange mood. I want to say I don't know what came over me, but I know that wouldn't be completely true. ~~I hate these curses.~~

[Private;]

Since that curse my left hand has felt strange, like an odd pulsating or throbbing feeling. I don't know what to make of it at all. It doesn't feel painful as such, just strange. I can move my wrist and fingers fine, I can still activate my Innocence it just feels... odd.

The aftermath of this curse has me thinking about Suman and the betrayal of Innocence... I know a few curses have made Exorcists here come close to having what would be considered a betrayal forced upon them but escaped it narrowly. Maybe because it was forced via curse.

I'm still not very content with this idea, though. It brushed a few too many nerves in the aftermath of it all, really. In retrospect it could have turned out to be a lot worse. I don't really want to go through any of that again.

Mana... it's all right to be afraid of war, right? Courage is not the absence of fear, but doing the right thing while accompanied by fear regardless. I'd never turn away from our mission, never stop moving forward.

I hate these curses.

♣ → [ Thirty Two ]

Fri, 16 May 2008 15:40:03 GMT

Really, I don't think I want to go back to our world again. It's easier to stay here and avoid the war... right? There's the odd strange curse here from time to time, but... in the long run it's easier than what we've been assigned to do.

I... don't think I can do it anymore... In the end it's impossible, the Earl has more force than we do so we're always going to be fighting a losing battle.

Can I just stay like this? I don't want to do it anymore. It's hopeless...

[ooc; Mirror City affected~ Oh noes, Allen has lost his unyielding determination and has become a little spineless /o\ ~~Is this how I does a Poly again? Ugh, so very rusty.~~ ...and food for thought, does this count as possible betrayal of Innocence? ;x ]

♦ → [ Thirty One ]

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 22:24:45 GMT

What is thi--?!

...ah. I'm ~~home~~ in the City... Again.

Honestly, I'm not sure what to think about this.

[ooc; Have an Allen back in the City and canonly updated to the period between the end of chapter 155 to just before 157 of the manga. Oh noes, he may be a little low considering the events that happened at the HQ. Possible spoilers abound, apologies in advance. ]

♠ → [ Thirty ]

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 11:19:36 GMT

~~N-not again!~~

Er... Welcome back to the City once more, all of you?

♥ → [ Twenty Nine ]

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 15:48:27 GMT

Something tells me I should be relived that I narrowly missed the last couple of curses...

♣ → [ Twenty Eight ]

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 18:19:51 GMT

[Private//Possibly Hackable;]

Ow...

Maybe I should be more careful about calling Kanda a girl in future. But if he'd just said from the start that he was a guy then it would have made things so much easier.

While the idea of lost loved ones watching over you is very comforting, I hope it's not always the case or that they at least take breaks. Mana, please don't say in some way you were witness to something so... embarrassing, I suppose.

Still, related to Kanda, during that curse where we switched bodies from Sakura's cards when Road had control... Maybe I should bring that up sometime. Even if he did say not to bring it up again.

Rabi is gone again. I knew he was weeks ago... but I guess I was hoping he was just laying low for a while and would appear again out of nowhere. He wasn't happy here, though. It's good he got out. It's a little worrying to think that he found it difficult to settle, but it almost feels like life as normal here now. I shouldn't be comfortable here.

No word about the Earl, either. That's good and bad. Road I know is still here, Tyki and one half of the Jasdero twins, too.

And as well as that, Fou is here... I'm slightly terrified.

I hope Miranda and Lenalee are okay, too. ~~Avoiding matters by rambling about everyone else... Stop that.~~

---

Candy hearts, huh? I should really be used to the City's cynical sense of humour by now.

~~'Cursed'~~
~~'Hypocrite'~~
~~'Heretic'~~
~~'Murderer'~~

...very funny indeed.

[Filter//Possible Hackable;]

I think ~~I'm going to be sick~~ I'm going to take a walk.

~~Mana, I... wish you were around to remove doubt like this that I shouldn't even have at these times.~~

~~'Heretic'... I don't get that one.~~

[ooc; Swift update while the semi-hiatus is still in effect... But damn I need some distraction. Forgive me, Poly! You are far too addictive. Allen will wander off to The Crypt, no doubt and be feeling generally blah. Strikes are the same private filter~ ]

♦ → [ Twenty Seven ]

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 20:00:19 GMT

...I'm staying in my room today and I'll bet I'm not the only one.

[ooc; Huzzah for arctic fox-Allen? :x ]

♠ → [ Twenty Six: Voice Post ]

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 10:53:41 GMT

The City's sense of humour never ceases to amaze me.

[ooc; So... Allen is stuck looking like this for the day and is unimpressed... ]

♥ → [ Twenty Five: Filtered to Resistance//Unhackable ]

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 02:27:35 GMT

Whatever it takes. That's the full amount it should ever be.

I know this isn't our original world, the war we came from or anything like that... But for however long we're here it's our world, isn't it? This is currently our war and if it's time to stand and fight for it then so be it.

I won't let my friends, from my world and others, be taken or harmed like this. I will not lose them again. Not ever. When the time comes for us to return we have to do so together. I will not lose you. Any of you.

It feels like it's been a while, even though it hasn't been so long. Even so...

Innocence, activate.

[ooc; Staying with a friend's family so thus the slow replies and a general sense of 'Ohwaitwhat'sgoingon?!' XD;; ]

♣ → [ Twenty Four ]

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 04:35:57 GMT

[Private;]

How the hell did I let myself get into this? I'm such an idiot. Still, we'll have to see how this all pans out, I guess. There are no guarantees that taking Road will ensure they won't try something, but the other Exorcists should be there too if it comes to that.

Uhh... I'm not looking forward to this. Or the others finding out about it.

Here's hoping somehow I'll be able to escape this.

---

Hm. The Gala, huh. Let's see how this goes.

[ooc; Attempting to keep his spirits up and suchlike despite feeling like a tool for getting baited so easily X3; He'll be wearing something akin to this I believe. Commentlog for the Griff and anyone who wants to, journal otherwise~ ]

♦ → [ Twenty Three ]

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 10:24:15 GMT

Wow, The Nutcracker really was a lot of fun, I'm really glad we went. Everyone was so good at their roles, it really was so much fun.

It's really Christmas tomorrow. Heh, it feels like time really has gone by quickly. It's going to be strange. I know not everyone celebrates Christmas here, but I wanted to give out some gifts all the same, call it my excuse to really show how grateful I am to the people I've met here and those who have been with me through everything in our own world.

[Private to Alexiel;]

[ ✘ ] I'm not sure if this is appropriate, really, but did want to see if I could find something for you all the same. I wasn't really sure what to get, so I hope what I found was all right.

I know it's not much but you've done so much for me, and the others, while we've been here. I know it doesn't really come close to how grateful I am, but it's a start, right?

---

[Private to Cain;]

[ ✘ ] Since I had no idea what to get for you, it was suggested that I got you a colouring book. I wasn't sure if that was a joke or not, though. With that in mind, I got something like that, but hopefully you can put it to more use. I'm not sure if you're really an artistic type, as it were, but I'm sure you'll be able to find some use for them, hmm?

---

[Private to Sakura;]

[ ✘ ] I know we haven't known each other too long, but I really wanted to get you something all the same. Thank you for being so willing to be friends and for giving Kanda someone to relate to as far as nationality goes. It shouldn't matter, but I think deep down he appreciates it.

I hope you like the little gift. I was going to buy you a pack of Tarot cards of your own as well, but I think that's something you'll need to pick out for yourself, special connections to the cards and all that. I hope that makes sense, somehow ♥

---

[Private to Elaine;]

[ ✘ ] I'm sorry, I honestly had no idea what to get for you, but this just seemed so pretty. I hope you like it, even though it's just something a little silly.

It's good to see you're around again, thank you for everything.

---

[Private to Setsuna;]

[ ✘ ] I'm really sorry if this isn't really to your usual tastes but I was at a bit of a loss to find something for you as well. Even so, I hope it's not too bad and you can at least find a use for it while the weather is cold.

Thank you for keeping me company whenever possible. I hope we can have more opportunities to get to know each other better as time goes on. We should really head out for lunch again sometime soon, what do you say?

---

[Private to Lenalee;]

[ ✘ ] It's hard to admit to all the things you've done for me, all the things you've taught me and how you've helped me grow. Or how you will because I know the City pulled you in from an earlier time.

Regardless, 'thank you' doesn't even come close, but it's all I've got so far. It's not much, but it was a pretty trinket. I hope you like it.

---

[Private to Rabi;]

[ ✘ ] Heh, it was hard trying to find you something, even harder because we were shopping together! Anyway, I'm sorry it's more of a practical gift than a fun one, but it seemed to be pretty durable and given we'll all have to go back one day I figured you'd need something to stuff any notes and books you might have into.

Rabi, you... Thank you for being such a great friend to me. I had no idea I'd end up being part of such a unique band of people. I could never have dreamt of having a better group of friends. Thank you...

---

[Private to Miranda;]

[ ✘ ] This is sort of to go with a present Rabi has gotten for you, so I hope they go well together and you like it. Mostly, it's for the cold weather lately but if you wear it I hope you keep your hair down; it looks much better that way.

Please believe in yourself. There is so much that couldn't have been possible without you; you're such an important part of our team and I'm confident that one day you'll trust me when I say you're no-where near as hopeless as you seem to think. The very opposite in fact.

---

[Private to Ran;]

[ ✘ ] I'm sorry this is such a little gift, but it was very much a spur of the moment thing that made me think of you.

Hopefully, you'll find some use for them.

---

[Private to Kanda;]

[ ✘ ] ...it's nothing special, really. I doubt you really celebrate Christmas at all but I just remembered you saying you liked lotuses ~~during a curse~~ It's just... W-well. Do whatever you want with it. It was just... something I grabbed on impulse.

---

[Private;]

December 25th. That was when I met Mana and he decided that would be my birthday. So I'll be a year older this Christmas. Well, that's not accurate but it's the only birthday I've ever known. It's going to be strange.

Mana, I don't know what more this city has in store for us, but I like to think you're watching over me in your own way. Thank you for that, and for being my father. I miss you, but thank you for the memories.

---

Ahhh... All done now. But... who keeps putting mistletoe everywhere? It seems to be in such random places, too.

[ooc; If I've forgotten anyone PLEASE tell me ;__; I have a habit of being made of fail. And of course, affected~ So feel free to bump into him and kisses will happen. Ohnoes ♥ XD

Edit: No-one saw the fail... e_e]

♠ → [ Twenty Two ]

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 03:26:04 GMT

It was so unseasonally hot and now it's snowing. Still, it's a little more suited to this time of year in most cases, I guess.

Snow always seems to make me nostalgic, but I don't think it's making me feel as melancholy as I did last time it snowed here.

It's belated, I know, but thank you to everyone who helped in some way regarding this issue. Really, I'm so grateful and amazed at how many were willing to lend a hand. Thank you again. ~~I'm not so grateful to those who seemed to actually enjoy it. That's slightly unnerving.~~

[Private to Light;]
Mr. Yagami, If it's not too much trouble, could I request to borrow some of your time? I'm worried about the Tease becoming an issue in the future and felt that while I have the information I may as well provide you with it for further reference. If you feel it might help.

Please let me know.

[/private]

[Private;]

Mana, whenever it snows I find myself thinking back on things. I don't think I feel as heavy as I did years ago. Well, I do, but the weight is different somehow, shifted. It's hard to explain.

As well as that... Uhh. What have I gotten myself into. As if the Earl and the Noah here isn't enough to worry about, really. But it wasn't--hm... It's not worth thinking too heavily on right now. Or ever, if I had anything to say about it... But it doesn't seem to be that easy.

[/private]

Rabi, I owe you a lunch and a shopping trip, I believe. Are you busy?

[ooc; Lack of butterflies for now makes an Allen calmer. Yuusaurus tension makes him confused. And crazy people make him want to subtly step away... ]

♥ → [ Twenty One ]

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 13:55:37 GMT

[Private;]

Why are there so many? What the hell is he doing?! Even now... I can't forget. I'll never forget.

Suman, I couldn't stop what happened then, and I failed to stop it again now. People... People have been hurt, killed even. I can't forget. I can't.

[/private]

[Private to the Exorcists;]

Everyone, we have to try and clear out the Tease in the City, as many as we can, all if possible. They can't be left to breed further. Destroy any and all of them on sight.

Stay in pairs whenever possible. There's no way to tell if this isn't also leading into a trap by the Earl and Noah and we can't afford to be baited into battle like this.

Let's try our hardest to make sure no-one else is hurt.

[/private to Exorcists]

Citizens, try not to panic.

If you've seen strange butterflies around the City, they're called Tease. They feed of people's flesh and multiply. If you can avoid them the chances of them causing more harm is lowered considerably.

As members of The Black Order, we're trying to remove the threat as quickly as possible. If you have any information on anyone who may be infected by them, or if you know of any groups of Tease lingering please inform an Exorcist as soon as possible. We carry this symbol and all wear a particular style of uniform. We're difficult to miss. Any and all cooperation in this matter is appreciated. Please help us clear the city of this threat.

Also, this man is dangerous, the person responsible for all of this. It is in the interest of general safety that I advise everyone to avoid him along with his butterflies.

Thank you for your understanding. We'll be trying our hardest to end this as soon as we can.

[ooc; Of course, this has happened. Problems with Tease? Infestation? Call the Exorcist extermination team :D;;; Allen is a hypocrite and while clearing the butterflies will be looking for Tyki. Feel free to use this as a comment log if you want your character to throw some information at the Exorcists or lend a hand in the extermination! The more hands the better, after all! ]